It's not what you think. I'm not being arrogant. I mean, I guess I do rock in a nerdy, math, mom kinda way ;) But what I mean is - I still rock my baby to sleep almost every nap and every night.
When Laney was first born, for some reason (call it being a new mom) I really had my mind set that I would have her on a schedule and I would train her to put her self to sleep. I quickly learned that it wasn't as easy as the books and websites made it seem. My mom, would say "just rock that baby- I rocked you till you were practically three." And so I did, most of the time because it would just BREAK my heart to hear her "cry it out".
Eventually, she got older and actually seemed like she liked her crib and I could lay her down awake and she wouldn't even make a peep, suck her thumb and go to sleep. She did this for quite a while. And by her first birthday - man - we really had it down.
That was until a couple of colds, ear infections and some really rough teething came along. I got really frustrated. What happened to my awesome routine? I felt terrible for Laney, because obviously she didn't feel good - it's just so pitiful when a baby is sick. Am I right? And I was spending hours of my day and night rocking and pacing.
My patience was running thin and I was being selfish with my time.
But thankfully, the colds went away, the ear infections healed, the teething eased up (for now) and the Lord taught me to be still and just enjoy my sweet baby (okay well, she's almost a year and a half - but she's still my baby!).
As I rocked her last night, I prayed and thanked the Lord for the chance to hold her, to look at her, to read to her, to kiss her soft forehead and to be her mama. I thought what else do I really have to do right now anyway? The Lord has blessed me to stay at home with her. I don't have a job to go to in the morning and laundry, housework and everything else can wait while I spend twenty minutes or so rocking this baby that is growing faster than even seems possible.
And so, I will continue to soak up every bit of this sweet, fleeting time and I will keep rocking.
4 comments:
You got it girlfriend! This is what life is all about. Soak it up. It'll be a mere memory soon enough.
Audrey you just keep on a rockin!!! Your head and heart are in the right place. I am convinced that unconditional love is what will grow your children to awesome adults and it is the one thing that is in a class by itself. Satan can't defeat unconditional love. Keep on giving it girl. You're the best.
That is so sweet!! She will grow up so fast--enjoy the times that she will actually let you walk her--it won't be long and you'll be begging her to sit in your lap!
I'm so with you!!
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